things I haven’t told you:
I cried about us last night and I’m going to tell you maybe after the break up because I don’t want you to realize how in love I was, am.

things I haven’t told you:
if I keep him, I’m leaving him at your doorstep as soon as they let me check out.

things I haven’t told you:
she isn’t my best friend and I’ll never say it but she’s the only reason I wake up every morning. Not your kisses. And my parents want it to stay this way.

things I haven’t told you:
every time you open your mouth my heart sinks because I’m never listening to the blackness you spew but it gets in anyway.

things I haven’t told you:
I never want you to leave even when I say I do and when you do, every time, something leaves with you; and comes back every time you return and I turn my back to you again, every time.